Posts Tagged ‘life’

New Beginnings

Friday, October 16th, 2009

I had dinner with a friend the other day, a lighting designer, whose work freelancing in theater is nearing an end. Having garnered for himself some national and international success, regularly working off-Broadway, and regionally, he has decided that the lifestyle of the freelance lighting designer is not for him. While he has projects through next fall he has been turning down work steadily to give an end date of October 2010.

I find it fascinating to see the choices that people make in life. By many external standards my friend has achieved great success. At the very least he has achieved what he set out to achieve. Being now at the place he set out to reach ten years ago his targets are shifting. We all do this to greater or lesser degrees. In my experience it takes great strength of character and a strong inner compass to be able to shift course in such radical ways mid voyage.

There are interesting parallels between my dinner companion and the show I am currently working on. Richard Foreman, a true master of the American stage, is directing his last ever theater piece. His interest now is on experimental film. He has given up his theater space of several decades and will transition full time to film. It is one thing for someone approaching 40 and considering starting a family to shift careers into something more stable and sustainable. It is something else, albeit related, for a man of 72, considered a leader in his field, to decide that he has reached the end of what he can do aesthetically and needs to find new mediums of expression.

Both of these decisions necessitate clear thinking to come from a proactive place rather than a reactive place. Too often we hold on to old ideas of identity long past their relevance to our actual daily lives. At some point we find ourselves scrambling to make up for lost time as we attempt to reorient our consciousness to this newly realized, but long existing, reality.

Too often it takes some crisis point for one to wake up to the reality of their existence. Rather than taking the time to look around and recalibrate our lives we wait until we are up against a wall and then are forced to choose between a now limited range of options.

Successfully navigating one’s life and career does not mean simply doing the job in front of you well. It is not just playing the cards you are dealt. It is knowing when to trade in your cards for a new hand or folding entirely and taking your winnings from the table.

Being proactive is what makes life vibrant and full. Seeing a challenge or a goal or having a desire and putting your full effort and intention towards achieving that goal makes for an exciting life. Grabbing life by the reins and taking opportunities as they arise or even making your own opportunities creates an adventure out of life.

Often I find people focus on endings. We see the end of some phase of life or a project or a relationship. But each of those endings are also beginnings. Having the courage and foresight to see those beginnings and transforms them into powerful opportunities for growth and transformation is necessary for inner peace and true success.

In many ways success is easy. Outward success that is. One can craft a life that looks to external observers like they have “made it.” However, just because the life looks good to an external observer does not mean the one holding the cards is enjoying the game. The appearance of success is not true success. Being true to one’s self and one’s inner vision of the life one wants to lead takes courage and continual vigilance.

This is a tough path for anyone to walk.

Good luck!

Of Writing and Lighting – Rule Number 12

Monday, October 5th, 2009


A basic structural design underlies every kind of writing. The writer will in part follow this design, in part deviate from it, according to his skill, his needs, and the unexpected events that accompany the act of composition. Writing, to be effective, must closely follow the thoughts of the writer, but not necessarily in the order in which those thoughts occur. This calls for a scheme of procedure. In some cases the best design is no design, as with a love letter, which is simply an outpouring, or with a casual essay, which is a ramble. But in most cases planning must be a prelude to writing. The first principal of composition, therefore, is to foresee or determine the shape of what is to come and pursue that shape.

~Strunk and White, The Elements of Style

When Strunk and White set down their elementary principals of composition I wonder if they grasped how far reaching those rules might be applied. Good composition is good composition be the medium language, paint, music, or light. So too with good design.

There is a “basic structural design” which underlies every work for the stage and lighting that work requires discovering a visual expression of that structure. Sometimes the structure may follow the rhythm of a day: dusk, night, and dawn. Other times that rhythmic structure may be more psychologically driven like the transition from confinement to freedom or from apprentice to master. Still other times the structure follows an emotional journey from triumph to despair or love to grief.

While each work is unique, in every case the designer will “follow this design, in part deviate from it, according to his skill, his needs, and the unexpected events that accompany the act of composition.” In design, as in writing, “planning must be a deliberate prelude” to making the work. It is not enough to put lights everywhere with little thought towards the work and just figure it out in tech. Rather one must closely read the text, be it a text of words, music, or movement, to deduce the structure and essence of the work. One must have a plan going in as to how the work will be approached. The plan may change, it often does. But far from invalidating the need for a plan, those changes reinforce it. If you know where you are going, and you get lost, you have some sense of how to correct your course. If you don’t know where you are going in the first place you will simply become mired in confusion.

Knowing the rhythm and structure of a work allows the designer to approach it with a clear plan. Thus she achieves the first rule of composition: to determine the shape of what is to come and pursue that shape. The many detours, far from obstacles, are the exciting parts of design. The structure one creates and pursues is the map. The process of discovery in tech is the terrain. One is beautiful in its purity and ideal form. The other is beautiful in its complexity and challenge. The shape of the design is made of both the predetermined structure and the many deviations from it.

In the tech process the designer does not have the luxury to move in the order they would like. Typically one starts at the beginning of the work and moves through it methodically, clearly and slowly. Once the end has been reached we begin again at the top and repeat the process, refining what we had previously made.

While we go in with a plan, sometimes a work will not truly reveal itself to us until we are seeing it live on stage. As such the key to the piece may not be discovered until midway through the work in tech. In such an instance we go forwards with that new key in mind hoping to return and begin again with this new knowledge to guide us from the top.

So too with writing. The full shape of a work may appear in the first draft. More often the piece goes through numerous revisions and changes before its true structure is revealed.

From my own experience the act of writing is an act of design. I have a thought or idea I wish to communicate so I sit down to set it to words. From the first that process mirrors the act of creating with light for performance. In this way I have also found that leaps in my writing foreshadow leaps in my lighting. As my writing improves so too does my design work.

To some it is drawing. To others photography. For me, writing is a hobby complimentary to and symbiotic with my design work. I can work out ideas and concerns with projects specifically as well as generally improve my powers of composition. For anyone whose work is as central to their life as design is to me it is important and necessary to have a hobby that gets one away from that work and gives it space. At the same time, that activity should be one that in some way reinforces the basic skills necessary for the work such that they operate in concert rather than opposition.

Perhaps I could focus a bit more on Rule 17: Omit Needless Words. Perhaps I already do. I have explored minimalism quite deeply in the past and my essay last week dealt with omitting needless colors. Design is everywhere if you know where to look.

Missed Connections

Sunday, September 30th, 2007

The best thing about freelancing is the flexibility it affords my schedule. If I want to take a vacation there is no boss I need to check in with, no “vacation time” I need to contend with, etc.

It is also the worst aspect of the job.

When projects pile up one on top of the other it can be difficult if not impossible to get them all sorted out. I find myself at times with several people all wanting to put up shows the same week and then the week after is empty. Just part of the job.

The other day I was asked to participate in a forum for emerging designers to showcase their work. It sounded like a really great opportunity and an interesting event. Trouble is, I will be working out of town. Still, being asked is always nice.

This also has a tendency to filter over into my personal life. Scheduling time with friends can be quite difficult. If they also freelance in the theatre their schedules tend to be as crazy as mine. If they don’t then they often only have these things called “weekends” during which to do socializing. Sunday nights are no good because they go off to work the next day, while I often have the day free.

There was an interesting New York TImes article about this and more a while back. The world of the theatre operates on such a different schedule then the rest of the world and one is often so busy you forget what normal people do with their time.

i sometimes wonder what my life would have looked like had I followed that political science/philosophy track rather than devoting myself to my lighting design. There are no regrets, its just curious to me that in life you can not try two different paths. You have your path, you walk it and it leads you where it does. There is no going back. One might change course but never return to the same place.

But it s a curious thought, what if I had taken that project instead of the other one? What were the choices that led me here to Virginia to light Driving Miss Daisy and where else might I be had I made even one small choice differently?

At least he improved his Technorati rating

Monday, August 7th, 2006

This is insulting. I appreciate the role of a critic and educators are obviously a necessity, but in order to critique something one must actually be familiar with the subject. Reading the Joy of Sex does not devirginize you. Great responses here, here, here and here.

There is the problem in all its deadliness: graduate programs as “preparation” for “the business” so that graduates can “get jobs in the future.” This is a pathetic idea of what theatre education ought to be. Theatre education is a problematic idea. You can not teach art. Plain and simple. You can teach techniques and tricks, but these are little more than cliche without the soul, heart, mind, discipline and dedication of the artist them self. All a school can do is tell you the history and the cliche and the business. Because it is a business, be it a $500 budget or a $5 Million dollar budget it is a business. And it is art. And there is nothing wrong with that.

You become an artist by making art. You learn by doing. Plain and simple. There is nothing that was presented in a classroom that was ever as valuable as the actual making of art, with the sole exception of my taxes seminar in gradschool. You become a better theatre artist by making theatre.

Praxis not theory.

I am not theorizing here. These are not idle manifestoes written from some dark cubicle. I am describing my life. To quote Saul Williams, “Motherfuckers think these are metaphors. I speak what I see, all words and worlds are metaphors of me.” If you want some specific examples look here or here.

So little Scotty, I would suggest some extra-curricular activity. Go see some theatre. Spend a few months in New York and see everything you can. Or London. Or Melbourne. Or San Francisco. Or Buffalo. But please, before you do this again, please get out of the classroom.

A is for Awesome

Friday, June 30th, 2006
  • 33 minutes from the Financial District to 168th Street
  • How have I lived in New York for five years and never had a rental account with Kim’s Video? They are fantastic. A twenty dollar membership fee, but with that you get a twenty-five dollar credit to your account. Great deal when you have a lot of video research to do for an upcoming project.
  • I go into tech next week for my show with SPF. It may only be a 99 seat house, but I love working on 42nd Street.
  • I saw Dead City by Sheila Callaghan last night. It was very good.
  • I have exciting personal/professional news but I am not allowed to publicly disclose anything yet.

Subway thoughts

Monday, April 3rd, 2006

The 20th Century philosopher Martin Heidegger made an important observation when he spoke of ‘Being’ as a verb rather than a noun. Being, the basic unit of existential analysis ranks next to ‘Self’ in importance. Or rather they are one and the same thing. Form and function become indistinguishable.

Heidegger’s texts formally understand this in terms of the discursive tools he uses to construct his arguments. He takes the reader through a journey and demands of them not a passive understanding, but an active engagement. Process determines product. Theory is derived from practice.

Trocee and I have been going back and forth about the role of verbs and verb tense in relation to culture, awareness and consciousness. The basic subject has to do with the relation of verbs and verb tenses in language and how they serve as a reflection of that culture’s understanding of the world. As a result then, one might be able to map a relationship between language, culture, cultural production, and possibly individual action.

Heidegger’;s claim of being as verb and being as noun is often misunderstood by speakers of English. The German language denotes a verb by the use of a capital letter at the beginning, just like we do with proper nouns. (I personally prefer a little impropriety in my nouns, but that is a separate post.) As a result an everyday German understanding of language,when translated into English takes on an esoteric metaphysical quality. ‘Being,’ ‘Capital ‘B’ Being, and so forth. This common misunderstanding obfuscates the essential meaning that Heidegger is trying to make, life is action. The form coexists with content in a mutually necessary almost symbiotic relationship. Heidegger further placed an emphasis on context, an element ignored by his French readers who came to be known as the Existentialists. So we have an evolved network of relationships. Form, content and context all inform react to and guide one another.

Why does this matter?

It matter because this is life. This is how we live. We are placed in a context(born), and we react and interact with it. This is also theatre. We have a text(content), performed(form) within a given place and time(context). When I write about minimalism or lyrical humanism within the context of a networked meta-theatrical setting I am already creating that theatre through the use of hyper links, common cultural references, tags and so on.

If I mention the most beautiful sun set ever, I have helped create that for you in your mind by referencing your memories locking onto my words in an attempt to understand and we begin to break the fifth wall. When we go see Dorothy’s Mash-Up Theatre we will be experiencing a live, whole and contained theatre event. But we will also be experiencing contemporary music trends, hip-hop, the theatre blog world, visual art, technology and so on. And on.

Endless associations.

Endless associations that feed in on themselves. It is truly a web. But not a mere object. It is a living thing. It is information evolving like and organism. A thought becoming aware of itself.

Just as the work of Plato, in a sense, did not become fully realized until Derrida’s deconstruction of it, so too does information not become alive until it has the proper technology to live its content and make concrete the associative networks it has always operated under. All that is left is to package it and sell it like Cola.

Oh, wait. Someone did.


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